Lisa Riley - Back for a moment

I suppose we all deal with grief in our own way. And one thing about when you're grieving for the ones that you've lost, is it can be a really lonely time.

I've lost many people in my life, but my mum is the biggest wound, the one that hurts the most, I'd say. 12 years on, it still hurts. It's still as raw as it ever was.

When I think of my mum, I think of happy times and a real happy time was when we went to New York for her 50th. She had the most incredible holiday, the fun we had and the laughter we had together as a family, it really warms my heart and it's a memory that that I want to hold on to.

After it, she was like “Ohh, we have had the bestest time and it was so much fun. How can we remember it?” And she bought me the most beautiful silver locket. She put a picture of me in there, and her, and it's a heart, to always keep that memory in my heart.

And, while we were in New York, we discovered a wonderful artist called Martina McBride. And she has a great song called In My Daughter's Eyes. And the lyrics, they mean so much to me. And there's a distinct lyric in that song when it says “When I'm gone, I hope you'll be as happy as you made me.” And that's all I want to do. I just want to keep Mum's legacy going.

You know, you think of Mum’s smile and people look at me and they go “Oh, you've got a big smile.” It's like where did I get it from? I got it from my mum.

There are times when I am on my own and I think about my mum and she's not there and she's not coming back. If I've got something like a crutch, being the locket and the song, that helps me with my grief.

And you can do whatever you want. However, it helps you to get through it. Whatever suits you. Because nobody's story is ever the same, and I know that.